There are times when I write entries and I stop and ask myself, “Why am I doing this?”.
On the other hand, lately there are times when I have to stop and remember that I have cancer. The latter is good to some extent, it means I am dealing with this and getting on with my life, as best as I can. The moments are brief, but the moments are priceless.
As for “Why” – when I started this blog my initial purpose was selfish, it was therapeutic. I could write about what ever I wanted. I could freely express my inner emotions and expose my true feelings. After all, who would want to read about some middle aged man as he struggles with cancer? Then the purpose morphed into something more, it became a way to keep family and friends updated.
Over time, it has grown to a level that I never anticipated it would reach. There are people that I have never met or even exchanged emails with, that read my periodic ramblings. Just last week we received an order for FLHW bracelets from a woman in Florida. When the order came in, neither Mary nor I had any idea who had sent it in. As it turns out, she found my blog from a link on another blog from someone fighting prostate cancer. She and her husband’s story are like so many of us struggling with this disease, tragically unique, but still optimistic.
I sincerely appreciate the comments and emails that I receive from those that read my blog. Touching the lives of others and inspiring those who are battling this dreadful disease as well as those who support them is now a primary reason, “Why I do this”.
….and so life goes on, moment by moment, one day at a time.
Please know that you are doing exactly what you stated: touching the lives and inspiring others battling this disease. My husband and I truly appreciate your honesty and openness in sharing your life with us.
Sharon
Your blog is what motivated me to start my blog! And throughout my whole cancer ordeal, my blog is one of the main things that has kept me from going crazy! So thanks!
David – you have answered your own “why”! Your words have gone coast to coast …a friend of mine in CA has just used some of your “words of wisdom” (as she put it in an e-mail to me) from your blog, for a friends of hers that earlier today, went through his first surgery for the removal of a large cancer tumor in his stomach…God has blessed me with your friendship, even if it exist through your lovely wife Mary. Cindy
David, one of the many great things about our human existence are the mysteries of life amoung them the contemplations of reason and purpose. In witnessing first hand what you and your family have been through and the enormous, unanticipated goodness that has come from your generosity in sharing it all, it has never been more clear to me that for everything there is indeed a reason. How blessed you are to come to realize just one of the many reasons of your existence and circumstance. How inspirational you are to turn a heavy duty negative into a sustained, far reaching positive. If any one has ever been fully blessed by the grace of God, it is you and your family.
Jeff